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A Love Letter to My 5 Year Old

08 Apr

My dearest darling baby,

Happy happy fifth birthday to you (it’s actually tomorrow). I know every mother says this, but I just can’t believe that it’s already been five years, I still remember meeting you for the first time. At the same time, I can’t remember the details of my everyday life before you were born. Is it selective amnesia? I don’t know but I’m happy with this. You are the center of my universe along with your daddy, your maamu and your grandparents (you will always be our baby).

A few months back I promised myself that I’d write you a letter every year on your b’day. I want to do this for multiple reasons. One, it’s so easy to forget and I really want to remember your early years, not just the images in photos but the way you spoke, the surprising things you said and the milestones you crossed. I can’t capture all of this but I hope to create enough of a verbal image to kickstart my memory when I’m older. The second reason is, I know most mothers and daughters go through a tough period when the daughter is in her teens or early twenties and though I appreciate that this is a part of the learning process for both of us, it’ll be nice to look back on the times when you were a mummy’s baby to help me remain patient with you and myself.

Yes, we have ugly crocs. You love purple and I love pink and tangled is still your favourite movie (2 years running).

Yes, we have ugly crocs. You love purple and I love pink and Disney’s ‘Tangled’ is still your favourite movie (2 years running).

There’s a lot I want to tell you, so let me start with what’s important in life. Family and doing what you love. Yes, it sounds simple (but it’s not my darling), however, these two life factors are worth working, fighting and taking risks for. Maybe it’ll hurt more when you put all your love into a relationship and things get messed up, but if there’s real love those messed up things will get resolved over time.

Doing what you love will make you happy, I don’t know if you’ll have enough money or have a comfortable life initially, but you if you keep doing what you love you’ll eventually become the best at it and this will lead you to the life you want. How do you know what it is you love doing? Well, it’s different for different people. Some people just know right from the time they are really young and for others it takes some time to figure out, but everyone has that one thing they enjoy doing and figuring out how to make it your life’s work is the real challenge. A definite barometer on finding out if you love something is wanting to wake up and start doing it on the first day of the week, after a super fun weekend. While daddy just puts his heart and soul into whatever he’s doing, mummy took some time to find my calling. I always loved reading and writing (stories or poetry), art and travel. In my mind I was sure I would become a chartered accountant and a traditional artist who paints with oil. Things have turned out completely differently and might possibly change as I grow older (I’m not sure we really completely finish growing-up and that’s half the fun of life). Today mummy and daddy work together and mummy has written my first book and also lost interest in it and am writing my second book.

When it comes to relationships you are a child blessed with so many people who love you and that also comes with a certainty that at various points in life you’ll have to choose who you spend time with. This does not mean you love anyone less or more, it just means at a particular point in time someone needs you more. Never hesitate to make decisions after considering all the visible options, because if you are sure about why you made a decision and it’s in good faith (that means you think you did the right thing), people who love you will understand even if it doesn’t turn out great or the way you envisioned.

Now something I must tell you about your daddy. He loves us to bits and he is also highly protective and a little bit possessive of us. Even today he doesn’t mind the house being overrun with a bunch of five-year olds but he won’t send you to anyone else’s house to play unless he knows the parents really well. I understand this but foresee a few problems going forward, when you want to go for sleepovers or for a movie at night with your friends or even to college in another country. We’ll tackle those when they come but in case I’m not around (I don’t believe this will ever happen but hey! you never know), the best way to handle him will be to address his fears rather than rebelling. You may not always get your way (which is good for you character) but you will definitely get to do the important things, because at the end of the day he loves you to bits.

Now I know I’ve been rambling on a bit, however, there’s a last thing I need to discuss. It’s about being a mother. I know I’m not a conventional mommy. I work long hours (though daddy and me alternate working late to ensure that you never spend too much time away from us), I take you to movies (not with adult content obviously) and art galleries, I’ve carried you around for work for almost a year when you were too young to be left alone, we go running together and I’m not really into cooking. Despite all this I know that we have an amazing relationship and that I’d rather spend my day with you than anywhere else. Plus you’re well-adjusted and a happy child and I guess all those hours of sneaking off to the movies or painting crazy stuff in our pyjamas while eating strawberries has worked out right. I know you want a brother or sister and you’ll probably get one but only when we are sure that we won’t be taking away from the time you need with us. If this means going through the potty training stage again when I’m forty, so be it. Basically, when you become a mother (if you want to have children that is) remember that there is no perfect formula. What suits every mother and child is unique and precious. The only rule is every action should be driven by love, even if it’s anger.

At the end, baby remember that mommy and daddy love you the most in the whole world and it’ll stay that way even when you become a namnam (grandmother).

Love Mommy

Muah

P.S. – Last week you found a letter written by daddy to mommy and demanded to know where your love letter from daddy was. Well he’s written you one for your 5th birthday and it’s going under your pillow tonight.

P.P.S. – Too much nail paint always turns your fingernails yellow. Transparent is the best nail colour for hands. I love the way you laugh like you’re acting in a movie :-) (You know what I mean my drama queen). You are also currently crazy about rhyming words and we spend hours giggling over them.

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Posted by on April 8, 2013 in Family, Growing-Up, Lessons in Parenting

 

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9 responses to “A Love Letter to My 5 Year Old

  1. fashionconfessionsofamommy

    May 1, 2013 at 11:31 am

    This is so sentimental. I am sure she will cherish these she is all grown and even more when she becomes a mom. I create memory books for each of my kids every year to show what they were into, funny things they said and who they hung out with who was their favorite family member and friends etc… I end it with a letter similar to yours telling them how I feel about them that year. THey are filled with photos and memos. I just use snapfish 5X7 paper photo books to create them and I always order 2 so that I can give them one and keep one for myself. :)

     
    • nmaha

      May 10, 2013 at 7:10 pm

      Thanks Daphne. That’s such a great idea. I would love to see a sample of your memory books, if you don’t mind sharing :-)

       
  2. Elisa (@HipMom)

    April 17, 2013 at 11:07 pm

    belated happy birthday to your little girl!
    This is just such a lovely post. It’s funny how we have different life experiences behind us but I can relate to so much of what you said!

     
    • nmaha

      May 10, 2013 at 7:12 pm

      Thanks Elisa. I so agree, the connect between us is so funny given that we are at completely different places geographically and in our lives.

       
  3. Preveena

    April 9, 2013 at 4:57 pm

    Happy Birthday to your lil one! That’s a really sweet letter to your daughter. I wish her a beautiful day filled with memories.

     
    • nmaha

      April 9, 2013 at 6:06 pm

      Thanks Preveena, that’s a lovely greeting.

       
  4. Sanjana

    April 9, 2013 at 12:57 am

    aw! such a sweet post! She’s a smart one, that V, and you’re bringing her up in a completely different but exemplary manner (in my opinion).

     
    • nmaha

      April 9, 2013 at 4:33 pm

      Thanks Sanju. Feels like my birthday all of a sudden :-) Wish you were here and could come for her party.

       
      • Sanjana

        April 24, 2013 at 12:24 am

        aw! That’d have been fun! I just got back from a trip to Kerala, but spent all my time in kerala itself, with the folks. It was excellent though! :)

         

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